I remembered - Recurring Dream #1

 When I was little I had a few recurring dreams and although I don’t remember which came first, the one I remembered today was this one:

    A criminal invading our home with the intent to hurt us.  But in my dreams I was able to talk to the “baddie” (me and only me) and explain to him why he shouldn’t hurt us.  In the end he understood, of course, and became a better person for it.  That got me thinking of how I am today.  Not much has changed, I still like to “make things better” although I see how it can translate to “I’m always right”.

    Again, I’m Tap Dancing In The Grass.  I think I’m doing something for good, but to the world I’m maybe being narcissistic — right?  I just think that the things I value (the way I find happiness and fulfillment) could apply to everyone, and there’s nothing that makes me happier than making others happy… codependent much?  I may be codependent, I may have narcissistic tendencies, but I have good intentions, damnit!!  And I also believe that through life experiences and family placement at birth all happened for a reason.  I mean, the world needs people who care, who like making others happy, although there should be a limit and one should understand boundaries.

    So that’s what I need to work on:  understanding boundaries — mine and other people’s.  I need to know when to stop and control my passion when I think someone needs me.  I need to put my superhero cape away and just be some sort of hero.  At least in my own mind.

I’m happy I’m writing, and I hope I can keep it going.  It’s helpful and sometimes entertaining since in my adult life I developed the ability to laugh at myself, a quality that avoids us when we’re young…

Later, G